I am going through the Bible study, Unglued by Lysa TerKuerst, with a girlfriend. Lysa talks about making baby steps in your progress. I am slowly, painfully realizing my "ungluedness" is of my own making. My own unrealistic expectations. EVERYTHING cannot get top priority.
Today is cloudy. My first day off. I am babysitting some big kiddos after school and having some new friends over for dinner. My house is clean but fairly cluttered. My fall decorations are not out yet. I am giving myself grace to not panic over this.
Storie is in an outfit a dear frien gave us for Arwen when she was small and I did not have enough warm outfits. This friend has so many strengths I admire that I know she does not see. I am taking the time to be grateful rather than unglued.
The big girls are a bit whiny today. So I made them "aromatherapy" play dough rather than obsess about cleaning up my kitchen. I may or may not allow them to keep their 3 day old hair styles.
Our cars are broken. However, through the generosity of people in our church family Ralph has a car to go get us groceries and a mechanic is making a house call to help us diagnose the issues before we take them in. Feeling grateful rather than panicky. And I'm still praying a way opens for us to keep our October vacation plans. We need some family time.
I am writing this down so that at 5pm I can be reminded to not run around like a chicken with her head cut off screaming like a banshee. Which would only hypothetically happen at this house while getting ready for company. We will eat home made pizza (the priority over the spotless house) and fellowship and make memories. I will joyfully watch my friend's children as she has watches mine and pray for the "sick" child having tests today. I will make my baby steps.
I may or may not blog while rocking my precious baby who is growing far too fast.