When Ralph and I first started contemplating moving out of OH, we prayed and prayed for God to provide for us. We prayed for Ralph to find a job while knowing that I would also have to work some too. So I started praying for childcare--someone I could trust, who would love our girls as we do and who loves Jesus too.
I also used to pray and pray God would let us leave OH and live in the West. Near mountains. Preferably near water. He answered that on His terms, not mine. The thing is I now have children and want them to be closer to a set of grandparents and wasn't so sure about this moving away thing at the time. Well, I think He placed this desire in my heart a long time ago because He had a plan I knew nothing about. My circumstances changing my desires did not alter His plan. He answered the prayer, my response is up to me.
My uncle recently reminded me of a truth I know but can forget at times. My security comes from the Lord. Not in my plans working out. Not in doing/being exactly what I want (which seems to change often). Not in living where I want or where I think I want to live.
God provided/is providing for our needs--He answered our underlying prayer. He provided work for me. Unexpected. Unwelcome. Provision. A new lesson is God's ways are not my ways. He answered our prayers. He has provided our daily bread. We had planned our way but God determined our steps.
He answered my childcare prayers: someone I trust, who loves our girls as much as I do and who loves Jesus. Their father. Some days it can be painful that it is not me but if it can't be me it provides such peace to have it be Ralph.
|The loves of my life.|
Oh, and if I play my cards right, I may get out of potty training. Or, not, but it's worth a try, right?